Looking Back with Gratitude
Yesterday I had a good discussion with a friend about what we've been through so far in life - the life-changing moments we've had, the risks we've taken, and the heartaches we've been through. It left a lasting nostalgia in me until this morning.
I recalled my mistakes from previous years which invoked so much emotion in me. I remembered the time I was depressed and full of hopelessness. I remembered how lost I was and felt like I was going nowhere in life.
Then I remembered the first Feast Conference I attended in Cebu back in 2015. The theme was 'Coming Home'. Being far away from home and from God that time, the conference truly moved me in ways I didn't imagine. I was praying and crying alone in my chair, praising God after a long time of being away from him. My faith was reaffirmed. I knew that from that time on I just needed to trust God and His plans for me.
A few months after, I found the strength to finally quit my beloved but toxic job and go home. I was able to find rest and take another perspective in life. I tried to focus better on myself without worrying too much on finding that one true love. Eventually, I did find someone who has been loving me unconditionally, someone whom I can build a family and future.
Looking back at these memories, I cried my heart out this morning. But I was no longer depressed or hopeless. I was full of gratitude to God, realizing that He has finally pulled me out of the darkness I was in. I was crying with joy in my heart while remembering how I felt back then in that conference. God assured me that everything will be better if I just waited and trusted in Him. It truly did.
'Lord, I praise You for Your Goodness!'
I recalled my mistakes from previous years which invoked so much emotion in me. I remembered the time I was depressed and full of hopelessness. I remembered how lost I was and felt like I was going nowhere in life.
Then I remembered the first Feast Conference I attended in Cebu back in 2015. The theme was 'Coming Home'. Being far away from home and from God that time, the conference truly moved me in ways I didn't imagine. I was praying and crying alone in my chair, praising God after a long time of being away from him. My faith was reaffirmed. I knew that from that time on I just needed to trust God and His plans for me.
A few months after, I found the strength to finally quit my beloved but toxic job and go home. I was able to find rest and take another perspective in life. I tried to focus better on myself without worrying too much on finding that one true love. Eventually, I did find someone who has been loving me unconditionally, someone whom I can build a family and future.
Looking back at these memories, I cried my heart out this morning. But I was no longer depressed or hopeless. I was full of gratitude to God, realizing that He has finally pulled me out of the darkness I was in. I was crying with joy in my heart while remembering how I felt back then in that conference. God assured me that everything will be better if I just waited and trusted in Him. It truly did.
'Lord, I praise You for Your Goodness!'
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