on the Verge of

I couldn't sleep so I decided to write this post this instead. The past few days have been really tough. There's the physical struggle where pain is inevitable. Then the mental part is a deeper struggle only few could understand. There's also the emotional part where suppressed frustrations and anger are beginning to manifest. But I'd like to take this opportunity to be grateful instead. So thank you to my family for being my rock in my everyday life. Without whom, I might not find the courage to stand again. I love you all so much. And a special thank you to my man, who was with me almost every single night I was in the hospital, who took a leave on the day of my operation just to hold my hand before I was taken away, who listened to my deepest thoughts, doubts, and fears, who had to sacrifice with me because my health was a priority. Your presence always gives me a leap of joy. Thank you for putting me to bed before you leave. And thank you for bringing me out,

It has been two weeks since my left knee got swollen. I haven't been able to walk properly since. It's been two weeks since I have been to the office or simply just outside the house aside from the hospital. For someone like me who loves to walk around and finds joy in roaming around the city, it has indeed been two long weeks. But tonight as I contemplate on the unfortunate things in my life, I was able to identify the good things I have in my life as well. And truly, I am grateful to God that I have my loved ones who have supported me all throughout my journey. Despite the fact that I've become so dependent on the many of the basic routinary procedures I have in life, I have so much to be grateful for. And in that gratitude and love, I take my inspiration to do my best in my recovery. So my Encouragement Photo for this month of October is about strength. No matter what happens to us in life, we have to draw strength from the people we love so that we are inspired to m

Last week has been one, if not the most, challenging week of my life. Monday, I woke up with a swollen knee. I thought it was just one of those moments when my knee cap dislocated while I was asleep. I've been having similar incidents previously since I had a biking inicident two years ago. However, I could easily return it to its proper place by twisting my knee on a certain angle. But that morning, it was really swollen and painful. I had an 8am meeting that morning so I had to bear with it. I even went to the clinic before my conference call to ask for a pain med and hot compress. The meeting lasted until 3pm. By then, the swelling did not subside. The nurse advised me to go the doctor. I left the office right away and went to the Davao Adventist ER, which was not too far from home, since there would be no more doctors in the clinics by that time. I was on my own when I had to undergo all the blood tests, urinalysis and xrays. Good thing there was an aide who was kind enou