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Lately, ideas have been popping out of my mind. New ideas on my favorite crafts. Fresh ideas on business and investments. Ideas inspired by other influences who are making their good mark in the local and global market. These ideas are just too many that I had to write them down before they could get away like it did before. Now that I have these ideas written down, I need more action. For an idea without action is useless. A plan without execution is a waste. Ideas demand to be carried out. They are meant to be explored further. As an Industrial Engineer and a soon-to-be entrepreneur (I claim it!), I find myself doing a feasibility study for my ideas. I am excited. I want this to happen. With the proper product, channel and capital, I hope to be able to reach a wide market and find my way into the world of entrepreneurial possibilities. Cheers to more ideas and action!

While everyone is still sobering up from last weekend's Halloween parties, my family and I have already started visiting our beloved departed in the cemeteries. When I was just a little girl, I found this annual event a mere family culture. It was like Christmas reunions except for the candles and the litany of prayers we recite in latin. Growing up, the dead whom we visited in the cemeteries have increased. Also, it's not just our relatives whom we would visit. We would now visit some close family friends who have already died ahead of us. We would leave a candle and say a short prayer for them. We would greet or tell them something as if they were listening through the wind. I don't know why but every time we go to their gravestones I feel like crying. A part of me misses them. It seemed not too long ago when they were still with us. I remember their faces, their voices, their laughs. I remember what they lived for and what they died of. We remember the dead during

It's the little things you do that make me fall in love. It's when you look for my hand when we walk. It's when you patiently wait for me to arrive at the jeepney stop. It's when you greet me each morning and tell me 'I love you'. It's when you drive me to work when it's cold and raining. It's when you make me laugh even if I'm pissed off at you. It's how you hold me when we kiss each other. It's how you embrace me each time we see each other. It's how you say goodnight and look back each time you leave. It's how you make me feel beautiful even if I feel like I'm not. It's how you express your love to me even in our times of silence. And though you may think that these small things simply go unnoticed, they actually matter a lot to me. It's because it's the little things you do that make me fall in love with you more each day. I love you ♥   

It's okay to cry sometimes. I feel it refreshing to release those tears, to just let go of the emotions bottling up inside. It feels relieving to set my frustrations free rather than to keep it all suppressed. It simply feels better to give a good cry. I won't hold back because it will defeat the purpose. I won't pretend that I'm okay because I know I am not. It's ok to be vulnerable at this moment. They will understand. They will leave me be. This cry is all I need, a few minutes of tears to get back to my stable self again. Afterwards, I will wipe my tears and pick up from where I left. I won't allow any trace of sadness or frustration linger. I will be stronger and will never let it happen again.

Life can be such a whirlwind sometimes. We scurry from one place to another. We cram reports or presentations for upcoming deadlines. We hurry to finish one task to move on to the next and so on. Times like this can be exhausting. It easily eats up my energy before I could even finish the day. I realized that taking short periodic rests can help keep myself on track throughout the day. While coffee or chocolate can provide convenient spurts of energy, a quick mental break can have a better and longer effect. I would get away from my laptop for a while, get a cup of cold water or close my eyes for a few minutes. Taking a nap during lunch break works best for me too. It wouldn't hurt to take few pauses to get oneself back to the optimum state for a more efficient work. Work may be important but it is important to take care of oneself as well.

There will be days when we feel so discouraged and demotivated. There will be days when we feel a lack appropriate recognition for all the hard work. There will be days when we feel that all our struggles just seem so pointless and unfair.   During these days, I try to remember why I’m doing this in the first place. I try to remember my reasons and goals for being here. I remember the love I infuse in all of my work, the real reason for all of my labour. Then I realize that what I'm doing now is a small sacrifice in the greater scheme of things.   Life isn’t going to be fair at all times. Being discouraged is part of the journey. We will not always get what we want. We will not always be gratified the way we want. But know that there are more things to be grateful for. We just need to grow more, persevere more and understand more. With this, we hope to able to do more, give more and perhaps even love more.  

It was Sept 9 last year when I opened this blog. It is not much but I am happy to be able to write and share a piece of myself to the audience that this blog is able to reach to. Reading through my posts, I feel though that I haven't been consistent in publishing my write ups. I even have drafts dated last year that I can no longer relate to. With this, I am going to start a habit of writing down my daily reflections. I may not necessarily post every day since some reflections are best kept between me and God or others. But I will do my best to post as often as I can. This will help me keep track of my situation, feelings and opinion. This will allow me to be to more open about my inner thoughts and possibly relate to others who share the same. I truly hope I can commit to writing frequently this time. The contents will be brief like this post but will concisely articulate that of my daily reflections in life. Cheers to more writing!

I was browsing through my Facebook timeline when I saw my post from a few months ago sharing Shakira Sison's post. Then my post reads as follows: "I remember the time when my life had bled dry and how I prayed that the drought would someday fade away. That someday took some time. It broke and flaked away some parts of me. It was a misery I just kept at bay for quite some time. Then everything else just blacked out. But it's crazy how sometimes we find directions during the most unexpected time of our lives. In the end, we always find some one. Maybe not someone we perfectly yearn for, but someone we lovingly deserve. Everything else followed ❤ # justintime " Everyone longs to be loved. Someday, when we have turned away from all the pain and loneliness, life will take a turn and love will come in just the right time. Then we will realize that the emptiness we felt back then helped us appreciate more the fullness brought about by love. Sison was righ